Hidhir- Tragic Hero?

Oh lookee!! A post within the same year!!!

Haha.

Things are so not going that well for me :(

So many things to do. So little time. yes yes, i know. Hidhir neither has school nor a proper job. he only has TAS to occupy his weekends, not to mention to provide a valid reason for sleepless nights!!

Hmmm.............blogging has become a little bit harder, ever since I joined Facebook ( oh the horror of peer pressure!!!)

I remember a time when I used to log every single chance I got (every single time i get a computer with Internet access. like one in a computer lab during F&N lessons in sec school)

Anyway, I've always been very bad at expressing negativity to outsiders(read: everyone but me). It's my outlook on life you know, just focus on the positive things and all the bad things will eventually crumble upon themselves.

Oh goodness, so worried about another matter but I shan't discuss it here until I get more news about it. it's a matter of pride.

Got what this post is about yet? Yes. Faults. Mine in particular.

There is a Malay saying which goes "Easier to see a germ across the oceans than an elephant in front of your nose". Or something like that. It loses some of its poetry once translated but anyway... it describes a certain trait of us human beings in that it's so much easier for us to spot the tiniest of flaws in other people than it is to see the faults we have ourselves.

So I thought I'd just go over the faults i have with myself. And perhaps the 2 of you reading this.

Firstly, I'm damn lazy. No, really. What? You already knew?

I'm damn lazy. Really, if there is one trait which I think would be the downfall of me, it's my laziness. Combined with my habit of procrastination, it's a truly lethal combination.

the second one might be a bit of a surprise. I'm too nice. There I said it. There might be a lot of you out there who might think "Oh Hidhir is so nice to me. La di da di da...." when in fact I might actually hate you. No really. I can be very vicious, for those who know me well. It doesn't take much of me to rip a person's reputation apart (I gossip quite a lot about certain people) but when I come face to face with these people, I just... become nice. Even when they are self-absorbed m*th**f*ck*rs who should just go out side a play "hide and f*ck yourself in the a**" and probably aren't really worth my time.

Oh, but if I keep poking fun at you and tease you mercilessly, chances are, I really really like you =D Feel better now?

And it leads me to a third trait. I may come across as a straightforward kinda guy sometimes. May be a little outspoken here and there. Maybe a little quiet at other times. But the thing is, I always always have an opinion of my own which I don't tell other people. usually cuz i'm too nice. But most of the times they aren't really the politically correct opinions such a nice guy like me should have.

I like to gossip, there is that. but only about certain people. I don't care who your aunt's daughter's only cousin is dating right now. No really. Unless you're a really really good friend of mine. Even then i don't guarantee you that i'll remember a name.

I spend money like money grows on trees right outside my house.

I'm pathological liar sometimes. I'll just lie for no reason at all. Like when I said "You look nice today" ;P

Ergh....I think that's about the amount of self abuse i can stand for one night.

hmmm.....

Night!!!

UPDATE!!!!!!!

OMG it's been soooo looong!!!!!!!!

And it's all Facebook's fault, I swear!!

You don't settle for something inferior when you can have it good =)

Okay, okay let's see, where shall we start? Maybe with the fact that......i ORD ALREADY!!!!!!! BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!

First of all, I'd like to wish a whole two years worth of HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! to everyone. As well as for the two years coming, during which i'll no doubt forget the dates for some(read: most) of you.

And only two years cuz the world in ending in 2012.

I HAVE A JOB!!!!!!

Will not elaborate much on it, except that it's bringing in much needed funds for.....everything.

My sis is in SWEDEN doing her doctorate because NUS is too anal about protocol. Guess who got the short end of the stick? Not my sis =DD

And to all of those born in 1989, happy 21st birthdays to all!! You know how to contact me.

Lets talk about trees.

They are the longest living organisms on this planet. They give us shelter, food, OXYGEN and something nice to look at. Their roots dig deep and their branches stretch up high in to the sky. Without them, there would not be us.

And look at the lovely manner in which we repay them.

And i wanted to write something about Melissa Ling, a HOT friend of mine, but i don't think she would appreciate most of it. *cough MEEEEE cough*

So i'll just write that she claims she's a nice and awesome and kind and caring friend.**

**disclaimer: subject to........a lot of things. like personal taste etc etc....

=)=)

I will write more when i have the time, energy and content to make another post. for now, random thoughts are all i could manage.

Do tag. Kthksbye.

After So Long....

I haven't posted for the longest time!!!!!

I do believe you'll find a record of my last update chronicled alongside King Tut's burial somewhere in the British Museum.


Anyway, loads of stuff has happened since then. I lost my last few faithful blog readers. Trees and grass everywhere grew a few more micro=centimetres. Israel attacked Gaza, held it hostage, got part of its ransom payment it demanded, and is now waitng to bargain for more.



But lets not get all political shall we?



Anyway, with regards to my previous posts, about my office in camp and all, just to let you guys know, things have definitely improved. I'll have the whole of next week off and will be looking forward to some stray angpaos that always seem to come my way from somewhere.


And forget about the global financial crisis. Here, in this blog, i'll be revealing a financial crisis that has been going on since before the Lehman Brothers and Fannie Mae had an orgy, without proper protection, and is now wasted by much deserved STDs: My bank account.


Yes.


I know it does not at all impact anyone else, nor is it worth billions of dollars, nor is it tied to any other institution(except for POSBANK), nor is it significant to the world economy.


But i wanted to write about something i really feel strongly about.


Anyway, I believe Click 5 wrote a song about the state of my bank account= "It's empty........"


How did it happen? Well it's really quite simple. There wasn't much to begin with. I paid for my exam fees during my A level years, I paid for my misc. school fees (my family was in a spot rith then) and, most damagingly, i paid for my own food, so when i entered NS, i basically had around....hmmm....can't rmbr. Around 200 bucks?

Anyway, after i entered NS, i began receiving a monthly allowance from the government. thus, i stopped receiving an allowance from my parents. i began paying for my own food, clothes, transport....$500 goes into my account and $500 goes out every month.


I am really looking forward to payment from my xmas carolling.





Hope i've not bored you guys too much. I'm trying to learn this new song called "A Quiet Place'
and....well, lets just say that when the composer of this song actually composed this song, I wished he had kept quiet about it....

So much for Facebook.


I signed up, really I did. You might have already added me as a friend, even.

But just one day after signing up, a huge problem occurred. Huge, huge, huge.
I can't log in.

Okay, so I might have forgotten my password. Big deal. Just reset it right? Wrong. Everytime i try to reset it, it says my email is unregistered. But if my email is unregistered, how can facebook be sending me all my alerts regarding friends being added and all that?



Gaaahhhhhhhh..........................till date, blogspot has been the one thing that remained hassle free.




I really should update more often.


Oh, and Malacca was great. Barbequed turkey was heaven made and sent. Barbecued mutton was a bit too dry. Must have something to do with the fact that my dear ol'Dad and his friend who was roasting the meat disappeared halfway to....somewhere...leaving my younger brother and my younger cousin in charge of the meat. Hmmm........


I was in charge of the turkey btw.....heheh....early xmas dinner...


I cut my feet while walking along the beach. Ow. It was painful.

Reached Singapore around four o'clock this morning.


Found out new shows were scheduled for me, on dates when I won't be able to make it.



Gaaaaah......


But of course, I'm Mr Brightside, and the bright side of all this is.....the rainy weather is so nice for sleeping in.

If and when I have the time......ggaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

F*cked Up

Life in the office is quite effed up right now. Sometimes, too much is too much. It it was a regular job, I would have resigned last week. As it is, I can only hope to endure the storm that is surely to come soon and hope that whatever umbrella that's suppossed to shelter me appear magically in my hand very very soon.


Some people 'up there' should order a complete revamp of my department. We are understaffed, overworked, underpaid, stressed out and will soon be contemplating mass suicide.


Anyway......I found this song accidentally while on youtube and could vaguely remember it being on TV for some reason or other. Turned out to be quite inspirational. The song is by Anggun, an international superstar, originally from Indonesia, who later moved to France and has since been a citizen there, with most of her songs originally in French. This is, to date, her biggest(English) hit. YOu can hear on youtube. I don't want to figure out how to put songs on my blog yet.


Snow on the Sahara

Only tell me that you still want me here
When you wander off out there
To those hills of dust and hard winds that blow
In that dry white ocean alone

Lost out in the desert
you are lost out in the desert

But to stand with you in a ring of fire
I'll forget the days gone by
I'll protect your body and guard your soul
From mirages in your sight

Lost out in the desert

If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track
I'll be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes, I'll pray the skies above
for snow to fall on the Sahara

If that's the only place where you can leave your doubts
I'll hold you up and be your way out
And if we burn away, I'll pray the skies above
for snow to fall on the Sahara

Just a wish and I will cover your shoulders
With veils of silk and gold
When the shadows come and darken your heart
Leaving you with regrets so cold

Lost out in the desert

If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track
I'll be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes, I'll pray the skies above
for snow to fall on the Sahara
If that's the only place where you can leave your doubts
I'll hold you up and be your way out
And if we burn away, I'll pray the skies above
for snow to fall on the Sahara


I would recommend more songs for you but I would probably just bore the three people who remembers to read my blog....

One Of These Days.....

One of these days...I'm gonna get myself a new pair of jeans.

One of these days...I'm gonna start cleaning my roon(again).

One of these days...I'm get myself a camera. One that is incapable of SMS and is not linked, in anyway, to M1, Singtel or StarHub.

One of these days...I'm gonna write a book. Still not sure what it will be about but yes, I wanna write a book. One that is good enough to get published AND bring in some much needed income.

One of these days...I'm gonna start reaquainting(sp?) myself with the gym and track. Then maybe whatever muscles I have can actually be seen.

One of these days...I'm gonna stop treating what others would consider a full meal as a light snack.

One of these days...I'm gonna learn how to read notes on the base clef(I forgot how).

One of these days...I'm gonna learn how to just be myself around new people. Especially around new people.

One of these days...I'm gonna stop making fun of certain people(with a couple of exceptions. Can't take ALL the fun out of my life, can I?)

ONe of these days...I'm gonna visit Australia and Egypt. That way, I would have visited every single continent with the exception of Antartica. Unless I get a strange and utterly unexplainable urge to watch penguins in their natural habitat.

One of these days...I'm gonna stop writing down about what I want to do and start to actually DO something about it!!

Cookies

Gah. I know. I know. I have NOT been updating. It is the one constant thing I have in my life right now. Un-up-to-date blogs. A few weeks ago, I was unable to log into a variety of webpages, such as youtube and, yes, blogger, because, apparently, my brother for one reason or the other changed a setting cookies. Now that my knowledge of computer technology has been sufficiently been given an update(and my brother severely..er..disciplined), life goes on as normal.



Or what passes as normal for me.



I have been reassigned in my unit to a the Admin IC. The previous one got kicked out after a series of blunders(not totally his fault) and he recommended me for the position to my captain(albet a case of me not being able to do worse than other candidates). So now my previously, rather interesting, job of going all over Singapore rounding up AWOLees has shifted to boring clerical duties. My Captain is fierce and strict, my Leftenant is easily frazzled, my assistant is a little...too helpful? Not to mention juniors who need proper mentoring and guidance. I wonder what they feel when their mentor and guide(me) gets openly f*cked by my Captain? Which seems to be happening quite a lot nowadays? Hmmm...


And it was only just now that I realised that I am likely to be stuck at the desk for more than a year(unless my time in NS gets prematurely terminated due to reasons I don't want to imagine). Of course, if my Captain deems my work unsatisfactory for the next few days, I'll probably get sacked. Hmmm...... an idea comes to mind......


Nah. An Admin IC does have its perks. I no longer have to bother with roll calls. I get to read when there is no work to do. I get to build something closely resembling a friendly relationship with my superiors(always a good thing). And I have several juniors at my beck and call, with no choice but to run errands for me like cleaning the office and buying food from the canteen for me, through no reason other by me being of a higher rank. Yay! And reliable air-conditioning for the whole day!!!!


Oh, and I sang at the International Acappella Concert(Jazz Night) at The Arts House on the eighteenth of this month. It was terrible. Thank God Key Elements was there to basically save the whole night!!



But I'll get paid anyway. Bwahaha!!


My back is aching now. I don't know why. Maybe I sit in the office too long.




Will start exercising as soon as I feel like it. Which is hopefully sometime before this year ends.